10 Things to say GOODBYE to in 2023

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Scrolling for mindless hours on TikTok, Twitter, and other social media apps has brought me to one conclusion as the year ends: many people, like myself, have thought that the year 2022 was not in fact our year and was rather shitty (pardon my language). We’re all thinking,  “Let’s just slowly close this chapter and tuck it away, never to be mentioned again.” Sounds like a great plan to me!

If you don’t feel this way, and actually had a great year, well congradulations from the bottom of my heart! It makes me happy knowning that people did in fact have a good 2022. I, on the other hand (and maybe even others), were not so lucky. 

I ended the year nearly 10 pounds havier than this time last year. I ended the year even less consistent in going to the gym and even posting less to my social media pages (some of y’all may think this is actually a positive, but I wanted to grow my pages this year by posting more authentically). I lacked in determination. I struggled this year with my health, motivation, discipline, and spiritual awareness. I lacked in growth. Even though it is the end of the American calendar year, we are still in the dead of winter and I am still feeling stuck between a rock and a hard place.


I have decided that I am burning away the cold, dead, characteristics, memories, feelings, and people that bring negativity into my mind, body, and soul. In this cold winter, I will cultivate the flame of determination that’s been tugging ever so gently at my heart and soul to change the lifestyle I am currently living.


This is a list of things I’d like to say GOODBYE to in 2023:


1.) GOODBYE to the me that cares about what people think. No one is worried about me. I need to only worry about how God views me.


2.) GOODBYE to the feelings of despair, jealousy, slothness, tiredness, and anger. I am cultivating a home of happiness, and these negative feelings will continue to bring evil into my home. I pray to God to remove these feelings.


3.) GOODBYE to the procrastination. GET UP AND DO IT!  I want to create content. I hate living in a dirty home. I want to work out. Then I need to get up and do it! Set me a damn schedule already. I’m 25! It’s time to evolve from the me that was in college. 


4.) GOODBYE to the excuses! Sign up for MF therapy, girl! Even if I am not feeling “depressed”, “anxious”, or “panicked”, right at this very moment, these are feelings that do come up unexpectedly that I need to work through. HEAL that childhood trauma! It’s ok. Own it! Don’t be worried about being ashamed. It’s time to toss the feelings that what I went through isn’t enough to qualify for therapy or help. Stop thinking that other people had it worse, so I should just continue to try and heal on my own. I need to get it together for my daughter! I MATTER!


5.) GOODBYE to the half-assed effort I put into everything. I am spreading myself way too thin. It’s time to prioritize what is important to me this year and PRIORITIZE GOD before anything else. Cut out anything that is taking my time but isn’t helping me to reach my goals.


6.) GOODBYE to the comparisons! I am not those that I see on social media. Not everything I see on social media is real. Stop comparing myself to others. I am ENOUGH!


7.) GOODBYE to my heart on my sleeve. I need to continue to be sensitive towards others' feelings, but SHOWING or EXPRESSING my tears or other intimate emotions in front of others needs to go. I am THAT bitch, and I can express those feelings in private, not in front of colleagues, students, or other professionals. I will be cool, calm, and collected. (I am a major crybaby that needs to work on expressing my feelings lol)


8.) GOODBYE to questioning whether or not I am in the right place in my life. I need to put my life and trust into God’s hands. He knows the best plan for my life. He will never leave me starving. He will never leave me weak. He will never leave me with struggles. He will continue to support me as I pray to Him for guidance on this next chapter in my life.


9.) GOODBYE to the unwillingness to change or evolve. It’s time to usher in a new chapter of my life. Change is always good. Continue to reach out to God and He will bless me with the stars!


10.) GOODBYE to the unwillingness to love and accept my body. God Blessed me with a beautiful baby girl. I was blessed to carry my child. I need to accept that this is my body. I will love and cherish every mark, dimple, and roll. I will work on feeling physically healthy & strong to continue to live a blessed life with my family. Take care of me, so I can care for my family.


These are 10 things I am ready to say goodbye to. It’s time to burn away aspects of my life that are holding me down. The ashes will help fertilize the beautiful flower that will bloom in the next 12 months. Instead of loudly proclaiming that 2023 IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR, I will silently pray, affirm, manifest, learn, and grow into the person I pray God wants me to be.


Until next time, be safe and make good choices,

Mo.






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